Tuesday, March 18, 2014

To Bradley, and the College Freshman


              This weekend the littlest Jacobs boy will be turning nineteen. The time has flown as I’ve watched him grow and become a man. I say become a man, and yet I still remember him as the little kid that Chase and I could convince to do anything. Next year he will be going to college in Colorado and take that next step in life. Being a brother is a special relationship. Brothers can be thrown into any situation and work in silent communication. Their words have greater bearing on each other’s ears than the words of anyone else. It wasn’t a choice, but you were forced to be best friends. As decades pass though, you’re so thankful for that lack of choice. They can anger you in ways no one else can; simply because they know you better than anyone else. They make you laugh, cry, and fill you with pride when you see them accomplish goals often very different than your own. Brothers are special.
As the middle brother, I have a dual responsibility. I’m an older brother, and a little brother. I think because of this I have learned the importance of each role. The older brother is there to guide through experience and wisdom. He is charged with a commission to worry, be protective, and love unconditionally. As a little brother, you lead through experience and wisdom as well. You are commissioned to remind the elder of his youth, to learn from the mistakes of your predecessor, and love unconditionally too. However, age closes this gap of roles. Soon you find that roles become beautifully blurred. Brothers become confidants, advisors, and fellow soldiers in the wars of life. No longer is one superior or subordinate in all things, though this often was the case in youth. With age, each leads with his specific gifts uncontested. Brothers begin willingly granting command to the one best suited to lead the others. Time is the great equalizer.
Bradley’s birthday, and his new age, really hit home. He is so close to leaving for college and becoming an adult. So, to Bradley and other soon to be college freshmen, I write a list of important things to remember in college. I take the stance of “older brother” for one of the last times. Take your role as student, because I hope this will help you be a teacher later. Happy birthday big guy, and good luck in college. This is your present.

You’re an adult. Yes I know you think you are, but you REALLY are.
            By now most of you are eighteen and calling yourselves adults. Good news, you’re right. The problem is that you still live in your parent’s homes, your hometown, and you’re surrounded by the people that have only known you as that kid up the block. When you get left behind that first night, understand that the rest of the world isn’t just appeasing your ego by calling you an adult. To them you really are. The best part is that you have your independence. Now people respect and trust your decisions. You’re considered an independent and mindful person. You can be who you want to be, but be cautious. Being an adult doesn’t just mean that you get all the benefits, responsibilities are married to that. Professors have already received your payment for their classes, so fail away, they don’t care. The nice officer back home that might cut you a break is gone. The one patrolling around campus has no problem writing you a ticket, escorting you off certain premises, and throwing you in jail. You can choose to go out the night before a test, but be ready to deal with the consequences. This isn’t to scare you; well yes it is, but seriously make good choices.

Go to Class.
            It sounds so simple, but trust me; most mornings it feels impossible. There are two main reasons amongst a thousand I have for this. The first is that your professor will notice. Attendance in most places isn’t required, but professors are more willing to help out and reward a consistent student. The second is that going to class and taking notes usually has more value than just reading your homework. Professors would rather write test questions about life changing comments they’ve made than what someone else said in their book.

The Intimacy of Holding a Hand.
            For guys, your sexual endeavors are largely based off of what you think you’re supposed to be doing. Friends, movies, music all encourage you to create a sexual resume. For girls, you feel like you need to fall into this role men have created for you. At the base of it though, you all just want a form of intimacy and love. I promise you, a 3 a.m. walk holding hands is just as powerful.

The Coffee Test:
            A lot of the friends you are going to make will be found at parties and bars. If not, some of the first things you will be doing with new found comrades is going to parties. This is all fine and well, but a party friend is different than a real friend. If you can’t sit down and drink a coffee, play video games, or watch ESPN without getting bored, they probably aren’t worth too much investment. Nor is it healthy.

I hope you travel.
            Based off my own experience, I would say don’t take a whole semester off to see the world. As a side note, don’t take a semester off for any reason. Nothing is harder than going back to school.. Trust me. However, save up and visit someplace out of the states for spring, winter, or summer break. Studying abroad seems to be the most productive way of doing this, or a two week mission trip, but just make it happen. I promise it will turn your life upside down. It will destroy a gross, simple, and ignorant perspective you don’t even know you have. Be forewarned, life will never be the same. You will never grow more, and you will forever have a hunger to taste the world. Also, people will begin to look ignorant in your eyes. People will appear uneducated and wrapped up in their own little world. Be kind and respectful, they really aren’t, or they won’t be forever hopefully. You just learned some lessons earlier in life. Pass on wisdom, but don’t be cocky simply because you’ve become cultured.

Say yes to things you never thought you would, or never thought you’d do:
            Let me preface this by saying UNHARMFUL things. Take a weird class, try water polo, have a sword fight in the courtyard with the L.A.R.P.ers, try strange food, do hard community work. Saying yes to things outside of your comfort zone challenges and grows you. Just because you try something doesn’t mean you have to keep doing it, but try for the sake of trying. You might be surprised by what you realize you like. Free Flow Yoga is a strange and closet pleasure I have. I said yes. Why? I don’t know…

Broke takes on a whole new meaning:
            For some of you, Mom and Dad will be sending you a certain amount of money periodically. For others, you will be working and earning your own pay. Regardless, neither is infinite, and I promise you will learn the hard way. I’ve done both now. Nothing is more defeating than when you can’t eat anything besides Ramen, you have to miss that concert, or the bar in no way is a fiscal option. Prepare yourself for the stress and frustration. By the way, after the first time you’ll swear you’ll never let it happen again. I have bad news though, before you learn your lesson it’ll probably happen fifteen more times.

Read:
            Sure you can still read Twilight, The Hunger Games, and Harry Potter but don’t let it be all that’s on your reading list. Even if you don’t understand half the things their writing, read Emerson, Plato, Eliot, and Austen for example. You’ll feel smarter, and I promise you’ll be smarter. Writing is one of the most important skills to have in college. Reading things like the before mentioned will benefit this hard earned skill.  
        
Accept, and then Conquer Failure:
            For the first time in your life, you will really fail. Whether in relationships, school, or life choices doom is looming. Don’t worry you’ll live to see tomorrow, but it’s going to bring a hurt you’ve never encountered. Pick yourself up, dust off, and fix it. Don’t give up, don’t write it off, fix it. Sometimes, if not most times, you won’t be able to do it by yourself. Use a friend, counselor, or pastor but don’t let the pain linger. Pride is probably one of my greatest sins, and this is an especially hard thing for me to deal with. If you don’t understand the benefits of constructive failure, it will tear you up. Don’t spend weeks of your life like I have cursing your failure, just fix it and prevent it from happening again.  

Some days you’ll feel like God has abandoned you:
            So many times I would cry out for God, and not get a response. It would fill me with anger, pain, and despair. I would be lost and ready to give up. I learned a simple truth though: God was always there, he was just letting me grow. When I look back on all those hard times, I can see God’s presence. He was aiding me, and helping me in the important ways, I was just too ignorant, young, and sinful to realize it. Remember the Big Man has your back, just not how you want it often. You’re never abandoned, it just feels like you are.

Get a dog:
            I recommend this at the upperclassmen level. Nothing teaches you more responsibility than a dog. It’s not the same as when you have a dog as a kid. Your parents were always there to pick up the slack with your former pets. For the first time a living creature is completely dependent on you. By the time you’re a junior or senior it’s time to start slowing down and getting serious. Dogs make this happen. Often they force you home late at night for fear of leaving them alone too long. They make you pay for things you really wish you didn’t have to i.e. food, toys, treats, and the vet. When you’re stressed and sad they make you feel better. They make you clean up messes you didn’t make, and this often keeps you from making messes of your own. Not to mention… if you’re a dude, chicks dig your dog. Ask my yorkie… (too bad he gets all the love)

Mom and Dad are always right:
            You’ve spent your whole life arguing with your parents. I promise, you’ll never do it again. Mom and Dad are always right, but I’ll let you figure that out yourself.

            There’s a lot more I could say, but will stop here. Happy birthday Brad and good luck.

  

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